Jan 10, 2008

Real Talk



I don't know about you but I can totally relate to what Serena was saying in this post that she placed in her diary on her website. If you have ever been in a relationship and had somebody break your heart then this is definitely something that you should be able to relate to also.


Stand in these shoes (I'm sure u have before)
January 7, 2007

Weeks turns into months and you slowly start to wean the other guys in your life out. And than it happens. No not the "L" word. But what you have been most afraid of. What deep in your heart you have been afraid to confront. What you always suspected would happen one day sooner or later. HE STOPS CALLING. You panic. But you try to stay calm. He did this before when you first started talking, but u tried to forget it. You knew u should have not forgotten. But u tried to ignore it. He disappears for a week with no phone call. No answer to yours no nothing. Finally you hear from him. You want to rage you want to scream you want to cry. But you can't help you heart from feeling a tad bit happy.

As you begin to ask him what happened he stops you. He says "I need space". You cringe at these words. This is the very reason you begin to think why your heart was in that steel enclosure. The reason you don't put your emotions your feelings, your heart into it. Because one day it always turns in to this day. But you are already too far out you are at the point of no return, you can't come back. You can't believe, although a piece of you does believe it. Space. How many time have you heard this before? Space? Wasn’t you giving him enough? Space. Hummm you laugh because its so ridiculous. You laugh because again u knew this day would come. Why did you not listen to that little voice inside your hear telling you to "watch out". "Be careful". You laugh only because tears won't come.

You know its not you, but u cant help but look at that man in the mirror. You can't help but pick yourself apart. Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? And again and again you can't come up with the answer. Slowly as you try to focus on other things and think of other people you put you heart back into that steel case. (Read the rest)

6 comments:

Boy I swear this chick must have been reading my diary because when I broke up with my first boyfriend that is exactly how I felt. I don't know what is up with men and this notion of them to just stop calling or accepting your calls. What is really up with that? If they don't want to be with you anymore they just need to say that and stop being cowards.

Baby Gurl I feel you. I could never understand that stop calling BS. Men are such cowards when it comes to certain things. Keep your head up Serena!!!

Damn, it's like she was reading my mind. I am going through this right now. I know it's not me, but i can't help but wonder whether or not I did something to turn him off.

I too can feel Serena's pain. Just like her I have gone thru the same thing. Hey it hurts, but eventually you get over it and you move on to the next man.

I nice to see someone in her shoes bare their soul and admit that they have man problems just like the rest of us.

And let the church say...AMEN!!!! That girl was preaching...

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